I Know I'm Not A Perfect Person, I Wish I Could Change Alot Of Things I've Done and Been Through But I Cant Now

Yes I Could Have Them and Didnt, Most Of The Time I Was Scared For My Life And Thinking About It Still Scare Me

Yes I Had A Baby At The Age Of 17, I Was 5 Months Pregnant, Induced and He Died November 28th, 2010

My Sons Father Beat Me For 2 Years But After Johns Death I Snapped And Pulled A Knife On Him And Almost Succeeded In Killing Him If My Neighbor What Was A Cop Hadnt Pulled Me Off Him The Second He Seen Me Knock The Bastard To The Ground And Kick Him In His Face

Call Me A "Wh*re", "Sl*t", What Ever You Want, It Wont Effect Me I've Been Called Worse

I've Been Through Alot This Past Year, Found Out I Had Cancer June 2011, Had Surgery In August, And Went Through Radiation From October Through December Just To Find Out I Cant Have Kids Now

My Dad Just Finished His Second Round Of Chemo

Be Best Friend Finished His First Round Of Chemo

My Neighbor That's Like A Grandmother To Be Was Told She Has Breast Cancer and Just Started Her First Round Of Chemo

I've Lost People To Cancer and Almost Dying Myself From It

I Dont Know Why I'm Even Writing This, Maybe It's To Get Things Off My Chest, Some Of you Are Probably Thinking I'm Stupid For Even Writing This

I Guess That's It, Some Of You Are Probably Thinking I Need Help Or To Just Get Over The Past And Move On Already, But You Have No Idea How Hard It Is


-ALZ-